The next day, I had to use all of my guts like never before to go to school. I didn’t want to go: I felt scared to death and extremely sad, but I couldn’t disappoint my mother.
As soon as I crossed my school’s main entrance and I set one foot on the campus, I got goosebumps. I didn’t even want to remember what had happened yesterday.
But I immediately noticed that that day wasn’t going to be a normal one: several teachers were already waiting in the classroom’s doors.
“Go to the conference room. Now” they told us.
“Obvious,” I thought. “After what happened… yesterday, it is obvious that they’re going to have a meeting in the conference room to told us what happened and warn us.”
But I was somewhat confused: with something of this magnitude, why they weren’t any police cars around? Why wasn’t there any black ribbon on the main gate or the fence? Why they weren’t any “police line – do not cross” yellow stripes? Why hadn’t the classes being suspended to begin with?
“Maybe they just forgot or something,” I thought, though it didn’t make any sense in retrospective.
But I was wrong. Everything was odd due to one very simple thing.
“Students,” said the principal via the speaker in the conference room. “Yesterday, a prankster did a horrible joke on the police. You don’t need to know the macabre details, but all of you should know that we are investigating, and we are going to get him. I promise that - --“
“…”
“WHAT?”
“Something is wrong. Something is very, very wrong…” so stumped that thing left me, that I simply didn’t put attention to the rest of the conference. I was going to stand up to reclaim, but I didn’t. “It wouldn’t be the smartest thing to do,” I thought. How things were back then, it was better not to call any unwanted attention.
After the conference was over and everybody went out, I just stood there in the school yard by myself for a couple of second to try and digest this whole situation.
“What happened here?” I thought in a desperate manner.
I couldn’t be true.
“WHAT DO THEY MEAN WITH “A JOKE”?”
I couldn’t be true.
“Maybe the police was never able to find the room? Maybe it is just a giant scheme from the school?” I was sure of what I’ve seen.
My mind filled itself with incoherent ideas and doubts without answers. I didn’t know what to do nor to think.
“Excuse me…” Somebody was talking to me and I ignored it completely.
“Nothing makes sense… no…” I was still drowned in my own doubts.
“Hey, are you alright?” that somebody kept talking.
“No… it can’t be…”
“Hello? Is everything fine?”
I got mad. I turned around to see who was talking and screamed “WHAT DO YOU WA – ?!”
I couldn’t finish the sentence.
“Well, there’s no need for you to yell at me like that…”
Everything lost sense in that same instant.
“NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO…” I thought.
“If you don’t want to talk, only say so, ok?” I guess she wasn’t that confused.
“This can’t be happening to me… NO!”
“Hey, are you alright? You look somewhat pale…”
“YOU’RE DEAD!”
“Hello?”
Thank god there were only the two of us in the school yard.
I tried to run. Terror had possessed me. I don’t know what got into me.
But I tripped with a bench that was just behind me and I hit my head so damn hard I pass out.
The last thing I saw… that last image.
My girlfriend standing in front of me.
“No…” I thought. “I don’t… get it… it isn’t possible…”
“It isn’t…”
“…”
“…”
I remember that, when I woke up, the headache was unbearable.
I don’t know how much time passed, exactly. I was unconscious for 6 hours or more, I think.
Shortly after waking up, I immediately knew I was in the school’s nursery. Although I couldn’t see a thing (since somebody had put a wet towel over my eyes), the smell of old medicine and latex gloves was difficult to miss.
The pain in my head was going away slowly, and my senses were returning somewhat at the same time and speed, but I still didn’t dare to move any muscle at all.
But I could feel something more… different and new. It felt pretty warm, and it made me feel better. That something was holding my right hand and was transmitting a very sweet and gentle sensation trough my whole body, giving me more strength.
“Who could it be?” the answer was obvious in my mind, but it didn’t make any sense at that time. I didn’t want to believe it.
I tried to move, but I couldn’t: too numb. But I guessed that the attempt was pretty obvious, as I almost immediately heard her voice… I voice I thought I was never going to hear again.
“It’s crying. Whoever it is, is crying,” I thought.
“Why… why?” the voice said, holding my hand even tighter than before. She just wouldn’t stop crying. “What did I do? Did I hurt you? Why did you behave like that?”
“My god. What’s going on?”
“If it was something I did, I’m sorry,” she kept saying.
She took my hand to her wet cheek. It felt so nice.
“Please… forgive me…” and she kept crying.
Women’s tears are their most efficient weapons. Even more when they come from the woman you love.
At that moment, I didn’t understood what was happening. I was sure of what I’ve seen in that red room… but at that moment, my girlfriend was there, sitting right next to me, crying because of me.
“Did I… maybe, just imagined it all? No… it isn’t possible… Or is it?” it didn’t had much sense, but it was the only explanation I had.
Nothing made sense, but I decided, in that same second I doubted of myself, that it didn’t mattered anymore: I wasn’t going to think about it.
My girlfriend was ALIVE, and that was the only important thing… the only thing that really mattered.
I tried to pull my free hand. It was extremely difficult, but I was able to do so in the end. Thank god the pain was almost gone and now all that was left was the numbness.
“Don’t worry,” I said. Still with the towel on, I turned around to where I thought she was. I think I turned at the right side, but I’m not sure. “It isn’t you, it’s me. Very strange things have been happening to me lately. Sorry if I made you worry.”
“Oh, thanks heavens!” it appeared she was pretty happy I finally showed some signs of still being among the living. “THANK YOU!”
Eventually I found out I had made a mistake: in no moment had I shown signals of life. Even when I thought I had moved a little bit, I never did: she spoke to me all the time I was unconscious, from begging to end.
It was a little bit evident, in fact, when she dug her face in my stomach, hugged me however she could right there on the spot, and crying more than ever, said “YOU FINALLY WAKE UP! THANK GOD!”
It took me some time to calm her down.
Her little and beautiful face… full of tears…
Once the drama was over and I could finally, at least, seat on the edge of the bed, I hugged my girlfriend as tightly as I could.
“She’s here, and that’s all that matters,” I thought.
And you don’t know how much I repent, to this day, of having thought that way.